2nd inaugural post ;)

“i do not consider myself less ignorant than most people. i have been and still am a seeker, but i have ceased to question stars and books; i have begun to listen to the teachings my blood whispers to me.”
these words are from the prologue of demian by herman hesse. i haven’t read any further in the book yet, but i think these lines hold true, especially for this page.

when i finished writing the words in the profile of this page, the excitement i felt was palpable. i felt good about myself. as time passed and a fortnight went by, a fear came to dawn on me. lot of questions came flashing in my head: who am i to write on issues that have never happened with me? what will be the basis of my writing? i have never been hit or abused at home, never witnessed a rape. i do not have a father who is an alcoholic. i do not belong to a family that mistreats women. i have never been sexually harassed at work. i have never been homeless. i have never gone to bed on an empty stomach. i have never had to earn money to make ends meet. i have never had to make money doing something that’s against my will. hell, i haven’t even been in love and lost.

so if none of this has happened with me, have i got it all easy? have i had a smooth run so far? no, certainly not. so then, are my experiences with pain and suffering been forceful enough to make me feel just the way a rape victim or a homeless person would?

i have faced such questions in the past whenever i attempted to work on awareness campaigns for female infanticide and domestic violence. infact, the questions on domestic violence have been so overpowering that whatever i came up with, was rejected as insensitive and harsh, but that’s another post.

the point is what to do of the questions. they never stop coming. they never will. so then maybe that’s the way it’s meant to be. the questions have to come first, the answers always follow. or maybe answers lie in the questions themselves. or maybe when we actually find the answers, we won’t have the courage to accept them, won’t know what to do of them.

having said this, i have very little clue of how this page will turn out. today, it seems it will be a platform for two individuals who have many many questions and possibly no answers. tomorrow, it may turn out to be something entirely different. if you are with us, enjoy the ride as long as it lasts. if you don’t enjoy it, remember we never guaranteed it. :)

~ poonam